Susah-susah Je

geh. penat², kenapa ye bila makin bertambah sem makin susah benda yang dibelajar. sebelum² ni belajar dari reactant macam mana nak dapat product. tapi sekarang belajar dari product, reactant apa yang hasilkan product. dia da jadi terbalik da. kalau possibility untuk reactant tu memang ada satu je tape la. ni nak kena consider reactant tu mungkin akan react² lagi dengan yang lain pastu keluar apa la. haih. haih. haih. banyak nya merungut. sungguh ta bagus untuk kesihatan. =.=

kalau ikutkan ada lagi yang mencabar dari yang ini, sem ni kena approach real-world problems pulak. ye la, memang la apa yang dibelajar ni kita memang guna untuk real world. kalau ta, apa guna belajar penat² kan. ta kan la untuk dapat first class degree semata (amin). tapi masalahnya la, sungguh pelik² real-world problems ni. kejap² kena kira mass meteor la, pastu cari bila earth ni start hidup la. lagi tu siap jadi penasihat fire fighter lagi. (sebelum ni aku ingat chemist ni main² dengan molecules je la, sekali boleh jugak jadi fire-fighter advisor) and kira² kalau ko stranded dekat antartik nu, bape lama dapat hidup dengan makan corpse je. haish haish haish. (da bertambah satu huruf bila merungut) huhu.

tapi nak buat macam mana kan. mana ada benda yang senang dalam dunia ni. (benda free pon da ta de, kata orang la) da ini yang aku pilih, ini jugak la yang aku kena tempuh sampai habis. sekarang ni aku rasa nak belajar makin susah pon sebab aku da jadi ketagih gila nak tengok anime. tengah² study pon aku sempat lagi nak plan tengok anime apa. ini la padah nya bila internet laju macam apa. (maaf, masih belum jumpa perbandingan untuk beliau) sekarang aku baru je siap buat assignment untuk thermodynamic and equilibrium. tutorial organic pon aku da jawab jugak. so tinggal lab report dengan tutorial inorganic je lagi. semangat aku la ni berkobar² gila nak tengok FMA : Brotherhood. (maaf la bukan berkobar² nak revise 1st year punya module) isk isk isk.

padahal kalau ikutkan sebelum ni aku bukan main semangat lagi nak revise balik semua² yang aku da belajar. tapi semangat tinggal semangat je la. tunggu masa je bila semangat tu nak berkobar balik. huuu.. ok la, nak pegi tengok anime pulak. nanti petang² nak kena bersih toilet pulak. (bertugas bersihkan toilet this week)

btw, today is my sister's bitrhday. so.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

MAY GOD BLESS!

MAY YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL YEAR AHEAD!

bunyi guitar

best kan kalau pandai main alat muzik. best kan kalau dapat je apa², terus pandai main ta payah nak belajar² notes la chords la. best kan kalau diri tu tensai/genius (prodigy). huish. sekarang ni tetiba terasa macam nak main guitar je. tangan pon da macam tergatal² je nak masuk ebay cari guitar murah² satu. (ceh ingat tangan gatal² nak main guitar, masuk ebay je pon. huh) cuma tinggal ta terbeli² je lagi. ta dapat lah nak imagine betapa cool and macho nya diri ni bila balik² malaysia je dapat main lagu barang sekeping dua. FUHLAHMAK! cair doh jejaka yang memandang. erk.

tapi masalahnya diri ini bukan la tensai dan seangkatan dengannya, yang bila dapat je guitar terus dapat main lagu meletop². ufufufu. maka sebelum nak dapat main dengan skill level tertinggi kena la tahu basic dulu kan. haaa, tu part yang malas tu (bukan lagi masalah ye, tapi malas). bila da beli guitar tu confirm² la kena practise. kalau setakat beli buat decoration a.k.a semak dalam bilik je baik ta payah. buang duit, buang space je. tch tch tch.

hurmm.. kenapa la tetiba minat nak main guitar ye. kenapa ta piano ke, ta drum ke, ta clarinate ke or mengapa tidak serunding eh silap, kenapa tidak seruling? sebab nya, piano and drum tu confirm² la mahal. mana la aku nak korek duit nak beli and confirm lah mereka itu sangat besar lagi berat, ta mampu². tapi serunding eh asyik² serunding je, lapo ke apo ekau ni. huuu. ok² kenapa tidak seruling or clarinate? sebabnya dua mendalah ni kena meniup and memang da tau dah paru² aku ni ta de la besar sangat nak sedut udara banyak². ceh, yakin je. haha. ok la, kenapa guitar ye. sebab nye lah lately ni aku asyik duk tertengok prodigy yang pandai main guitar je. mungkin kalau tertengok prodigy yang ke arah kompang, angklung or gamelan, mungkin diri ini akan mempunyai tendency ke situ pula. MUNGKIN.

tambah² lagi housemate aku pon ada guitar jugak. bila masuk bilik dia je mesti aku kelentang kelentung kan guitar dia (case buta notes/chords)so terasa terliur pulak la nak ada guitar sendiri. maka di sini, mungkin aku juga tidak lama lagi bakal memiliki guitar sendiri. MUNGKIN. ditegaskan lagi. mungkin jugak tidak lama lagi aku pandai main macam abang sulong aku. MUNGKIN ye. penegasan lagi. huhu. dia tu aku tatau la play by notes ke by ears. kagum betul aku.

oh ya, kebetulan tu alang² da masuk topik ni, nak simpan la kat blog ni dua manusia yang aku terjumpa memang masyuk gila bila main guitar. eventho yang second tu pelakon je, but still dia tetap masyuk.

presenting.

SungHa Jung!

August Rush!

sorry

sorry.

my emotions got into me.

sorry.

it's not supposed to be that way.

sorry.

i've no right to be angry.

sorry.

how i wish we never started it.

sorry.

how i wish we can go back to those days.

sorry.

how i miss the times we laugh together happily.

sorry.

i can't wish happiness for you.

sorry.

i can't say these words to you.

sorry.

vain got into me more than anything.

sorry.

let's forget it.

sorry. sorry. sorry.

sorry.

i know i'll regret it some day.

but, as for now let's just wait until that day come by itself.

Sen No Yoru Wo Koete

Insya allah, this will be my last post of the broken hearted girl.

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me

I wander within that repetition

I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt

I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or not love me?

As for things like that, it’s already fine either way

No matter how I wish

There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?

That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you

Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you

There’s something that I must tell you

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me

I wander within that repetition

I found one answer; that even if I’m scared

Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

It’s scary to turn my feelings into words

But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words

So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi

Turn our backs on winter,

wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring

And become reborn anew,

so that we can protect someone

On the path we came from and our destination,

when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes

I want to face you, but I can’t be honest

I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner

And hated being alone on that day

Seemed to love people while unwounded

I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now

There is something that I must tell you

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me

I wander within that repetition

I found one answer; that even if I’m scared

Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled,

I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

zetsubou

There’s nothing more frightening
Than losing something you’ve obtained

To want anything and everything
That is the pledge of those led astray

Do you wish
For someone to understand you?
You sought for it again, why did you give it up?

I wonder when that loud throbbing of my heart stopped
And disappeared so easily away

nothing

sekarang da masuk sem baru. just harap semangat study lepas exam hari tu ta pupus lagi, moga ² masih melekat la semua benda yang da baca sebelum ni.

"i'm still waiting for the sunshine.

guess it's only shine in my mind."